I have my cha guan test tomorrow and I just went for another mahjong session at mathias's house. This time, I won like mad. At a point of time during the game, I won $12.80 from them and it was damn cool. Zx came and lost all my money but luckily we pay for our losses and take our winnings separately. But oh wells, I owe him money so all my winnings went to him. So irritating. Mat's house has good fengshui and that fengshui only applies to me. Wenxiong has bad fengshui there cos he will just lose and lose and lose, like what he did. It was pouring outside and we were just giving excuses to continue playing. Everyone got home at 11plus I think. Not funny, I think I'm going to fail my test tmr lar and that will make me want to drop my lep.

There's this whole load of things to do tomorrow. It's time to prioritise. I should only go out on either saturday or sunday, not both. Otherwise, I will end up like today, having not done my gp article, my maths poyo that's to be handed up and finish studying my lep test. Goodbye to my pass in cha guan.

And I have this fear of being replaced deep within me that's devouring my senses. Replacement by this totally insignificant figure. Why the fear? The replacement will take place some day anyway but I hope it takes somewhat a longer time to come.

Clara played this very nice song on the piano today and some thoughts recurred. Oh wells.